I have always been a writer.  For most of my life I haven’t written for people to read.  I put pen to paper because I was made in the image of a God who used words to call this world into existence, and He used words to call me to Himself.  Before I was formed in my mother’s womb He breathed into me a mind and heart for reading and writing.  Out of all the talents He could have given He chose a spirit that yearns to take twenty-six symbols and turn them over and over again into pages of what I’ve never considered an ordinary story.  Once in a while, when I would let them slip out into the universe, people told me what I wrote was a gift and asked me if I would please do it more.   I’m just now barely brave enough to put my name on it.




Feeling Forsaken. Knowing I’m Not. Moving West

Feeling Forsaken. Knowing I’m Not. Moving West“I have called to God and heard no answer, I have seen the thick curtain drop, and sunlight die; My voice has echoed back, a foolish voice, The prayer restored intact to its silly source. I have walked in darkness, He hung in it. In all of my mines of night, He was there first; […] Read more...

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"Start with the soul and perhaps the temporal gifts I want to exercise will have their chance; and if they do not, I have the best in my hands already, the only thing really needed.  God must be in all my work."  --Flannery O'Connor

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13 Comments on Feeling Forsaken. Knowing I’m Not. Moving West

  1. christa
    June 21, 2018 at 2:49 pm (4 weeks ago)

    You’re doing it, Monica. It’s unspeakably hard, but you are doing it, by the grace of God, one moment at a time. And not forsaken. I love you and carry you in my heart, which you inspire daily.

    • Monica
      June 21, 2018 at 8:09 pm (4 weeks ago)

      Dear one, His Grace is sufficient, even made perfect in this weakness. Thank you for praying. Thank you for your love.

  2. Shelley Thomas
    June 21, 2018 at 3:50 pm (4 weeks ago)

    Oh Monica this is me only mine is something like trigenamal neauralgia. My pain is deep within my right ear and down my throat. I had brain surgery with no relief. Doctors offer me no hope. I have been in constant chronic pain since 2009. I will be praying for you. I live in Tennessee.

    • Monica
      June 21, 2018 at 8:07 pm (4 weeks ago)

      Oh Shelley, I’m so sorry for your pain. Thank you for joining in prayer here.

  3. Susan Barone
    June 21, 2018 at 4:08 pm (4 weeks ago)

    Monica, you got it! I will pray. I will ask my friends to pray as well. My friend Brenda has a similar story in that she spent time in Florida for a season away from Dayton, Ohio. Everything changed for her pain wise, she said. The small community in Arcadia where she and her husband were staying were inviting and they went to church together. She did water aerobics. She felt stronger and the pain was so much less than what she experienced in Ohio. She and her husband were in agreement that they should move there. Then something went wrong where without her husband working they’d have no insurance. She was so devastated, but she decided she will pray and wait expectantly. We’ve prayed for a while for God to make a way. Praise God, He said, Yes. This month, their house sold and they are moving. I believe that can happen for you and your family, too. In the meantime, we will pray with you as you wait expectantly.

    • Monica
      June 21, 2018 at 8:05 pm (4 weeks ago)

      Thank you. There is peace knowing His timing is always perfect and His plans for us are good.

  4. Caryn Christensen
    June 21, 2018 at 4:41 pm (4 weeks ago)

    Heavenly Father,
    You KNOW every aspect of ALL of this…no detail is hidden from your sight or beyond your spoken word. You tell us in Ps. 2 that you have already stored up sound wisdom for the upright. And through David’s words, You exhort us to receive, treasure, incline our ear, apply, lift up our voice, seek and search for Your wisdom and understanding. You have given us a PROMISE, that if we ask for wisdom, You WILL give it.
    Oh RELEASE Your wisdom upon every member of this family, even now. Show them the way, make it clear, without hesitations or doubts. Oh God, our God, we CRY out to You on behalf of Monica! To relieve her pain, her distress, her discomfort! You are able.
    So often You use circumstances, situations and godly influencers to help us make the right decisions in this life. We ask You to make the mountains low and the crooked path straight for her. Lord God, we speak to the mountains of debt, of doubt, of fear, of worry, of ANYTHING that would stand in the way of Your perfect will for this family, and we say, “Mountain, be gone in the name of Jesus!” Lord, we speak it in faith, working in tandem with the Holy Spirit to do Your will. Make a way where there seems to be no way.
    Lord, whatever happens, may they know that they know, that they KNOW (in agreement) whichever way they should go. Speak into their ears and tell them to go left or right. You so often tell us to ASK, and it will be given to us. Lord, they are asking and not desiring to be asking amiss.
    You are not a God who plays games. Please answer our prayers by moving heaven and earth for them. How great is Your love toward them. Please remind them of that today.
    Hold Monica right now, wherever she is and whatever she’s doing. Make Your presence known in a very REAL way. Walk by her now so that she might be able to reach out and touch the hem of Your garment. Bring HOPE to her wounded spirit. In the powerful, perfect name of Jesus I/we pray.

    • Monica
      June 21, 2018 at 8:04 pm (4 weeks ago)

      Amen. I love you friend.

  5. Diane McElwain
    June 21, 2018 at 5:05 pm (4 weeks ago)

    Monica, my prayers are with you and your family. May God do mighty things for all of you. May Dan find the best job ever in Tuscon. I can’t imagine your life, but God holds you in his palm. Be brave! Take the grace God has given to you today!

    • Monica
      June 21, 2018 at 8:02 pm (4 weeks ago)

      Thank you Diane. It’s ALL Grace.

  6. Lori Spitzer
    June 22, 2018 at 6:45 am (4 weeks ago)

    Oh Monica, this breaks my heart. I’ve not known anyone like you. You have endured so much, yet your faith is only strengthened.
    I can’t imagine the disappointment you must be feeling, yet your faith is only strengthened.
    Having known you only a short time, my faith has been strengthened.
    I join with others in praying for God’s perfect plan for you, your family and that you have the strength to endure this. I love you, my new friend.

    • Monica
      June 22, 2018 at 12:50 pm (4 weeks ago)

      Lori, Thank you for your prayers and encouragement. I’m so grateful God brought you into my life in such a special way.

  7. Sheryl
    June 23, 2018 at 8:47 pm (4 weeks ago)

    I love you dearly. Mom


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