I have always been a writer.  For most of my life I haven’t written for people to read.  I put pen to paper because I was made in the image of a God who used words to call this world into existence, and He used words to call me to Himself.  Before I was formed in my mother’s womb He breathed into me a mind and heart for reading and writing.  Out of all the talents He could have given He chose a spirit that yearns to take twenty-six symbols and turn them over and over again into pages of what I’ve never considered an ordinary story.  Once in a while, when I would let them slip out into the universe, people told me what I wrote was a gift and asked me if I would please do it more.   I’m just now barely brave enough to put my name on it.




When Hope Seems to Die.

When Hope Seems to Die.“But even as hope died in Sam, or seemed to die, it was turned into a new strength…and he felt through all his limbs a thrill, as if he was turning into some creature of stone and steel that could neither despair nor weariness, nor endless barren miles could subdue.”–J.R. Tolkien, The Lord of The […] Read more...

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"Start with the soul and perhaps the temporal gifts I want to exercise will have their chance; and if they do not, I have the best in my hands already, the only thing really needed.  God must be in all my work."  --Flannery O'Connor

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7 Comments on When Hope Seems to Die.

  1. Caroll Aleshire
    May 7, 2017 at 9:46 pm (3 weeks ago)

    Just to let you know I am praying for God’s presence to wrap you comfort, with relief from pain and exhaustion and anxiety.

  2. Holly
    May 7, 2017 at 10:16 pm (3 weeks ago)

    Oh my precious Monica, I have been holding you so close to my heart. Sitting with you in this time of lament. Love you so much. Will not stop praying. Xoxo

  3. Sheryl Eberhart
    May 8, 2017 at 3:43 am (3 weeks ago)

    I’m praying that Tge Lord will restore your faith, hope, and bring you healing!!! May He just hold you near His Heart!

  4. Diane mcelwain
    May 8, 2017 at 7:33 am (3 weeks ago)

    I’m continuing to pray for you dear friend! Thank you for being honest.may God wrap his loving arms around you and keep you warm. Grace and more grace!

  5. Lori Whitaker
    May 8, 2017 at 10:08 am (3 weeks ago)

    Amen. Thank you for bearing your heart. I love you.

  6. Susan Barone
    May 8, 2017 at 11:52 pm (3 weeks ago)

    Your sister rocks. That’s the kind of friend and sister we all need in our lives. I am always drawn into your story and the sincerity of your pen, Monica. The lamenting Psalms say to me that there were, are, and will be believers like you and me who find giving “a sacrifice of praise” to mean the first part of that phrase: a sacrifice. The good news? We get a new body someday. I cry every time I read the passage about no more tears! No more pain? I can’t even imagine right now. God says He’ll redeem and restore to us what this world and sin originally took from His perfect creation. Satan tries to tell us a different story. He wants me to question my faith, especially when I’m having an anxiety attack. I live in hope of the days we’re promised in eternity. I will say I have had my share of time under the covers. You sure aren’t alone. I am also praying with you for the strength to endure and to use your story for His good and for His glory. Oh my worst pain days, I like to think of that cloud of witnesses cheering me on as I fight through my thoughts and symptoms. It’s a great image and it’s probably not far off the mark. Jesus for sure sees. Much love to you and your family from a fellow sister in Christ.

  7. Heather
    May 21, 2017 at 5:21 pm (1 week ago)

    Prqying God helps you. Since you like songs, maybe try listening to “I Have This Hope” by Tenth Avenue North.😇When I was sitting in the window of the psych ward and that song came on ot gave me peace.


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