God answers sharp and sudden on some prayers,
And thrusts the thing we have prayed for in our face,
A gauntlet with a gift in it.”
— Elizabeth Barrett Browning
“Gauntlet with a Gift” is a book in progress.
It is a story about a dangerous prayer I began more than nine years ago. It tells the upside down way God answered my plea and how I am just now seeing much of the good. It is about my struggle with faith in the midst of unspeakable pain, my daughter’s and my own, and how my husband and older daughter, Delaney wrestled a long side us. It is a book about miracles and giving God glory no matter what. It is about heroes who rescued us along the way and the quiet ones behind them making impossible things happen in a world wanting a tangible explanation for everything.
This is not a story of hindsight is clarity. It is not didactic in the theology of why God allows us to suffer. The gift at the end of this gauntlet is not wrapped in shining paper with a perfect bow on top. It simply answers the question, “Knowing what you know now and given the chance to change it all would you choose to walk a different road that didn’t include this fight?”