“…We think our testimony is supposed to be about our faithfulness, But our testimony is only ever how God is faithful to us, not the other way around. When we try to keep up the pretense for too long, we grow further away from God. To stay in relationship with God, when our worlds turn upside down and nothing makes sense, he invites us to lament, How amazing that a sovereign God is not offended by our big feelings. How amazing that He comes near.”-Alia Joy, Glorious Weakness: Discovering God in All We Lack
My unrelenting pain paralyzes me. The stillness and the groaning is really more like running and hiding. And I foolishly think I’ve ruined it all. My body, mind and heart are so weary. I cannot seek earnestly. But God is not offended by my lack of faithfulness. He is relentlessly pursuing me with scandalous grace. He knows my weakness. He entered it. He became it. He died to overcome it.
I will never see the end of His love.
This is where I’ll rest tonight.
(Mission House released their new album ‘I Heard A Song I Can’t Ignore’ yesterday. It’s truth over and over again.)